Conversations of Women + Friends

I was looking for the definition of the word friend to start this post and, of course, the urban dictionary came up in the search.  But little did I know the “definition” fit what I am going to share.

A friend is someone you love and who loves you, someone you respect and who respects you, someone whom you trust and who trusts you. A friend is honest and makes you want to be honest, too. A friend is loyal.
A friend is someone who not only doesn’t care if you’re ugly or boring, but doesn’t even think about it; someone who forgives you no matter what you do, and someone who tries to help you even when they don’t know how. A friend is someone who tells you if you’re being stupid, but who doesn’t make you feel stupid.

As far back as high school I have been on the struggle bus when it came to my friendships.  Friends in high school were with boyfriends and crushes behind my back.  High school jealousy was common and to be expected.  Then the backstabbing and catty behavior followed me into college as well.  I was definitely not a victim, I did my fair share!  As a result of all this chaos, I know that these betrayals and terrible experiences left me jaded and hardened.  By my senior year of college I was not a good friend.  I had decided that I was only supposed to take care of me. No loyalty to what will eventually crumble anyway.

But as all women know there is so much value in our relationships that into my 30s I craved that outlet.  However, I needed to learn how to be a friend before I could ask for one.  So I set out to ask sorority sisters and even former friends what I did to contribute to these failed friendships.  There was a lot of tears and harsh realities I had to face in those conversations.

Fast forward to today, the betrayals still happen.  I am not perfect.  I have not learned to completely let down my guard.  My circle is depleted.  I’m down to like 2 friends.  One of them being my husband.  The good thing is I am no longer jaded.  I know that they were in my life for a season and were necessary to bring to this point today.

Now you may be wondering what this has to do with fashion.  I was asked to give a fashion presentation to a women’s group called Conversations of Women.  I consider the founder to be friend so I didn’t hesitate to say yes.  Then she told me the topic–How Did I Get Here? I panicked.  I begin to reflect on how I got to a point where I am speaking to a group of women that have a group built on fellowship with no judgement.  Why would I be there?  I can’t keep a friend.  The enemy is so quick to try to take you away from where you NEED to be with self-doubt.  I pressed on still not knowing what I was going to say until I was called on to speak.  Now I don’t want to get deep or spooky but I heard the words “authentic relationships”.  Not BFFs, besties, baby mommas, or whatever they’re called these days.  A true relationship, a supportive relationship, and not necessarily a friendship.  Which means you have an event, I am not just present; I help promote.  I share your event, cover your event on my blog, and encourage others to support.  Real support.  Real relationship.

I don’t know what is in store for me on this journey.  I know I will fall short many times, but I look forward to forming authentic relationships with spiritual, strong, powerful, damaged, broken, determined, annoying, extra, bougie, grounded, successful women.  You all have a place here with me.

If you are interested in joining the Conversation in March, join the Conversations of Women Facebook group here.  This is their mission:

We exist to build a sisterhood of strong women committed to teaching, challenging, and inspiring women to live their best lives thru support, fellowship and mentoring. Conversations of Women encourages women to share their lives so that those around us can be impacted for the better!

Excuse my blurry photos.  No males allowed. LOL!  We had a great time!!!

Founder Kaija Hayes sharing a good “How did I get here story?” You had to be there!!!

What have you learned on your friendship journey?  Any tips for me??

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  • Drea

    January 24, 2017 at 4:08 am

    Zuqueta! I can definitely relate to this. I have had some failed friendships over the years. Especially in my 20s. I’ve been the hurt one, I’ve done some hurting, and sometimes I just don’t know where I go wrong with sustaining deep, meaningful friendships. I will do my best to work on the few but true ones I do have and work on this guarded nature I’ve been developing since the high school mean girl days lol. Thank you so much for sharing this Zuqueta and keeping it all the way real.

    Conversations with Women looks like such a blessing and a good time for the ladies! I love everything about this event and all that it stands for. I know you guys had such a great time! Continue to be a vessel, sis. Love and blessings!

    • Zuqueta

      January 29, 2017 at 10:02 pm

      Thank you so much. It was so cleansing to share and it feels good to know that I am not the only one with this experience! Praying for us both while we are on this journey.


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